Hatiku Hampa

Are we losing our closeness to each other?i really don't know honestly.things just seem different and to be honest,i do not like it one bit.everytime when my world came crashing down,you were there to pick me up.you were the one to scold me when i said i thought myself damaged goods and told me that i'm not,that someday a guy would accept and love me for everything i am and if he doesn't then he's just not the right one for me.

did time and distance change everything?maybe it did,maybe it didn't.to be honest,i can't be sure.the only thing i'm sure of is that i miss you.i miss our conversations.i miss the not-awkward silences.i miss knowing that no matter what happens,you would be there.sometimes i wish to turn back the clock and just relive those moments once more.

the late night conversations in your old car (which unfortunately got totaled by the arsehole who crashed into it) 'kidnapping' me for lunch after school,long conversations (which your dad kinda killed you for the phone bill) just sitting at a mamak or starbucks or just in the car,getting lost on the way home (we always seem to have a knack for doing that) and just understanding each other although its silence,the funny moments we have during photoshoots,the moments where you hear me sobbing on the phone.

i wish i could rewind those moments and relive them.they feel so far away now along with you.i don't wanna lose you.God,i'm praying really hard that somehow someway that things will go back to being somehow normal again.'Bro',i miss you.