Smile

Maybe i don't show my appreciation for you that much but i do.You came into my life at a point whereby i was already giving up on love and basically just surrendering to whatever happens,happens.I was so scared when i realised that i was falling for you.I guess God wanted to give me a kick in my butt and tell me that there are other guys out there who are nice and who will treat me well.Both of us kept our feelings so quiet and finally when we confessed,you went overseas for a trip and i told you that i'm not ready for a relationship yet.You took your time,you never pushed me.You just told me to let you know when i'm ready to take a step further.

Maybe it was good that you were overseas during that time.I guess it gave both of us a chance to further evaluate what do we really want and whether is this really worth it.But i should have known,the moment you made me smile more than i ever did before,that was it.I had never met anyone like you.You were so shy and yet you were so mesmerizing to me.The way you knew the right things to say and do just to make me laugh or smile.The way that you love me just the way i am.The way that you could be so shy and anti-social in front of others but yet when you are with me,its like there are no barriers between us.

Before you came along,there were other guys.Really nice guys but yet none of them stole my heart like you did.My heart skipped a beat whenever you came online or when i got a text from you.The phone calls we had for hours till the early mornings just talking about everything and nothing at all left me smiling all the time as i recalled what we chat about.Even my mum noticed a change in me when i kept smiling.The guy before you left me in such a mess that no one,not even myself could try to fix or pick up the pieces but when you came along,it felt as though i can try picking up the pieces and start over again.With your support and your patience,i slowly heal.I'm still healing but its much better now.

I love that you respect me a lot and are supportive of my dreams and ambitions.You give me a push when i need it and you comfort me when i need it the most.The moment i knew that you were serious about us was when you showed me that you love me just the way i am in your own way.You spoil me a lot,i will admit that and yes i love you spoiling me because i find it really cute that you try all sorts of ways to make me smile (but i shall try not to be such a spoiled brat *pinky promise*)

Like Avril Lavigne sings "that's why i smile,its been awhile,you turn it all around and suddenly you're all i need,the reason why i smile" i heart you a lot WH :)

David Choi!!!

What can i say about David Choi except for the fact that he is super nice,awesome and has the most amazing voice live ever! me and WH got to the place really early but we decided to walk around for a bit and have our meal first before going back to line up.We reach back about 2pm and there were already some people ahead of us,we were second.

By about 4 plus pm,the line was growing longer till the point,the people in charge had to open the doors because there wasn't enough space to accomodate us anymore.We sat and waited.Hunny Madu was the opening act and she came to do her soundcheck,all of us sat there patiently and greeted her nicely.When David came,all of us were screaming and saying hi to him but we didn't like mob him or anything.All in all,it was a pretty civilized crowd until the doors were almost opening and when they announced that there are only 32 shirts being sold and that's when the crowd went wild.I nearly got pushed against the table while buying my shirts and WH stood behind me so that he take the bashing when the crowd started pushing when the doors were open.

Me with my board

Hunny Madu was a fantastic opening act with just the keyboard as her backing music.Her voice was raspy in a good way and not like the Amy Winehouse way (sorry to fans of her,nothing against her,just not my taste) and powerful.Can't wait to get her album when i have bit more cash.

Of course,the main course of the evening was David Choi.He was funny,he was sweet,he smiled a lot and made many jokes.He loved saying 'terima kasih' and was very responsive to the audience.The stories he told regarding his songs were good and helps the audience gain a deeper understanding into his lyrics.He is one of the most subcribed musicians on Youtube and yet he remains oh so humble.He ended the night with three of his biggest songs which was "Won't Even Start","That Girl" and "By My Side".

He even announced that "By My Side" will have a music video coming out in July which is produced by Wong Fu Productions.Me and WH waited around after the concert and it paid off,i got really nice pics with David and even gave him a polaroid of him.He signed my cds and a board that i made.

Me with David Choi

The polaroid that i gave him

All in all,it was a good night and i made WH help me 'steal' a poster off the wall after the show.I hope David comes back soon with the whole gang.

The poster that i 'stole' along with the board that i made as modeled by WH

Music videos by David Choi produced by Wong Fu Productions

An awesome interview done by Jin & Ryan from Hitz.FM with David Choi

Some Reflections

Its been a year plus since the breakup with The Ex-Domo and about 5 months plus into my relationship with WH.I have figured out that maybe there was a reason that i went through a not so ok relationship to use a milder word to describe it.When i was with The Ex-Domo,i was immature,selfish and basically a all-rounder brat.i had fights for the sake of having fights but maybe it was both ways as well.It was never right from the start but yet i refused to see that side.i tried looking at the glass half full when it was not even one quarter full at all.

I will admit i'm stubborn.I'm very stubborn to a point whereby its my way or no way at all.i'm not someone who compromises easily although some people might say that i'm soft hearted.With The Ex-Domo,both of us are equally stubborn and equally hot-tempered as well.a lot of times,i compromised and ended up,i never felt contented or happy as i should be.a relationship should be give and take on both sides but from my observation and as well as my friends observations,it feels like i was the one giving instead of receiving as well.

After having been through such a relationship,i learn that i appreciate WH a lot more than if i never been through that relationship because i would have taken WH for granted and the relationship would just crumble.i'm still a spoilt brat in a way but i guess i mellow down a lot more now.

With WH,i won't say its all sunshine and paradise,we argue and fight as well but we both compromise.He knows when its his mistake and i know when its mine.we both apologise to each other no matter who made the mistake because that's what a relationship is,compromising on both ends to keep each other happy.i feel this content feeling and happiness with WH that i never got with The Ex-Domo or anyone else.

Maybe this is what a good relationship feels like.content and happy even with certain arguments here and there.we never argue for long.if we feel that we need a time out then we time out for a lil while but usually we would apologise almost immediately.

on another note,i have serborrheic eczema on my face so its annoying me like mad :( btw i went to David Choi's showcase last sunday with WH and it was so awesome.his voice was so good.i will do a write up about it later.for now,goodbye