unsure

i'm in digital storytelling class.i have to make stories for this class but yet,i don't know what to tell.

Dan Sebenarnya

i guess this is my open diary.somewhere i pour out my feelings albeit in a cryptic way,i guess.sometimes i wish i don't feel this way.i wanna be totally ok and say its fine for WH to go out with his guy friends and stuff like i have my hangouts with my guy friends in uni but my heart aches somehow and i don't know why.maybe cause i wish i was there with him instead of being home and waiting for him to get home to have our chats.

i know its selfish of me but we don't get much time together.we see each other at most twice a week but usually its just once a week and we don't stay near enough each other to have lunch or dinner together sometimes.so phone calls is our way of keeping in touch and being affectionate,i guess.he has a twitter but he's not active on it and he's being less active on facebook these days and he's barely on google plus.msn and skype is so-so but i will admit i'm not much on msn and skype as well.

he is affectionate,i'm not saying that he's not but sometimes when you only get to see the person once a week,i guess you are more selfish about the phone calls as well.yes,i'm trying to justify the way i feel although i know nothing really justifies it anyways.yes,i do get jealous when his guy friends stay overs his place after a night out or something,i'm trying hard not to let it get to me but i feel awkward knowing someone else might be listening to our convo because his friend will crash in his room along with him...

my routine with WH for now is like this,we don't usually talk until its afternoon cause i sleep earlier than him and wake up earlier than him but he's a night owl and sleeps till almost afternoon as he is still on holidays from uni right now so i let him sleep in cause i will get a zombie WH if i wake him up earlier than normal.usually i wait till he texts me to call him but then its usually close to my nap time or now because i'm not on hols anymore,i'm in uni so its not exactly the right timing so most of the time,we usually talk at night just before i sleep...so i kinda treasure the lil nightly chats...and i can't classify how i feel but just a lil ache in my heart,i guess?

yes yes yes,i know i'm being selfish and i can't justify how i feel but i honestly wish i don't feel this way because i do like WH's friends,they are nice people and i get along with them well.its just me being selfish,i guess...i hope i feel better soon.

p/s i do know ppl who are in long-distance relationships have it not to say worse than me but i will say its not as good as me but this is just how i feel at this point in time and in the future,maybe my emotions might change regarding this but for now,i feel this way and that's all.

Happy

I can truly say that i'm happy and contented where i am right now :)

p/s photos taken by me/friends

Clinique Star Tour 2011

wow,this is my 200th post...totally didn't realised it.i guess this is one of my longest blogs so far as i have nuked my friendster one.anyways,today i went for the Clinique Star Tour 2011courtesy of feeqsays and it was quite good :) I had nice makeup put on me and my hair was touched up nicely.The photographer was pretty nice too in directing me fo

r my posing.So here are some pics that i camwhored after the makeover and my hi-res pic that

the photographer took of me.

Loved the makeup but to be honest,i'm not a makeup person :P anyways,take care till the next post :)