EARTH HOUR!!!

EARTH HOUR TONIGHT!!!

Please switch off all non-essential lights and electronics plus unplug them as well.That includes ur modem,laptops and pcs k?Do this from 8.30pm-9.30pm your local time :)

The Sometimes And The Most Of The Times

mood:randomly sad
listening to:How You Love Me Now by Hey Monday,A Little Not Too Over You by David Archuleta,Tearin' Up My Heart by N'sync

sometimes i love myself
but most of the time,i hate myself
sometimes i like n.h.n.t crush
but most of the time,i tend to dislike the way he teases me
most of the time,i love Ryo
but sometimes i (do actually) dislike him
most of the time,i love being with my bois and having them worrying about me
but sometimes,i feel like i wanna be left alone
sometimes i wanna be in love
but most of the time,i'm too scared of being hurt
sometimes i'm shy
but most of the time,i'm too randomly outgoing that it scares ppl
sometimes i still love J
but most of the time,i hate him for how he broke my heart and now i can never give it fully to someone else
Sometimes i write random poets like this for no reason at all
but most of the time,you have to read between the lines to get what it really means.

I Had My Heart On Lockdown Then You Turned Me Around

mood:tired out
listening to:That's What You Get by Paramore,The Little Things by Colbie Caillat,Hero/Heroine by Boys Like Girls,Heartbreaker by Teriyaki Boyz

things have been pretty bz lately.Aside from assignments,been juggling a lot of events lately,all of which i'm always having to organize schedules and stuff like that.My metabolism rate is also not really good.losing weight and gaining weight.The other day,i was so tired out with all the kids.We went to Sunway Pyramid and wanted to watch Marley & Me but the only show time was like 6.45 pm so went to my auntie's place and kill time then only went back to Sunway.

I realised that Sunway is quite a nice place to do shoots.Kinda miss those shoots with Secret.Haven't tok to him or spend time with him in awhile,should do it soon.Next Thurs is his b'day.

Haven't tok to Ryo this few days.Kinda miss him.As for n.h.n.t crush?i did text him yesterday and his replies ain't so cold no more but i'm just walking on thin thread at the moment so i'm just leaving it.Its not like he textes me when i don't text or find him so like that lar.

Assignments are killers at the moment.Gotta analyze some stupid 4 min scene in Being John Malkovich which have 70 bloody shots...I'm gonna die becoz my eyeballs will probably fall out. This Friday,i gotta pass it up and yes,i'm a procastinator.The open day carnival at my col was good yesterday.I worked yesterday but I didn't work today.Went for my col's other branch art showcase in Subang Parade today,it was not bad but i guess i expected it on a bigger scale.Took quite some shots yesterday and today.

Well,hopefully things will be better sooner or later,take care.

love,
quirkylilprincess

Day With The Kids

mood:extremely tired
listening to:4 kids around me in my house...

Yes,i'm having 4 kids around me in my house making a racket.It consists of my two lil cousins who are 6 going on 7 and 3 going on 4 respectively and my God-sis with her sis who are 4 (i think?) and 10 going on 11.

Mummy decided to have them over for a sleepover.I went straight with them after col in the afternoon to Sunway Pyramid then to my auntie's house then back to Sunway Pyramid.will explain when i have more energy...

Watched Marley & Me.Its good,not dissapointing,i cried a lot towards the ending.I swam 7 laps today in col.tomolo,i'm aiming for 10 laps.wish me luck.I'm super dead tired,sori.The kids quite adore me though.My god-sis kinda sticks to me.But i can sorta understand y Britney Spears would have gone nuts with 2 young kids at the same time.Kids can really wear you down.7 laps of swimming and 4 kids for more than 6 hours really makes you tired...nitez

love,
quirkylilprincess

I'm Not In Love,I'm Not In Love With You

mood:crazily tired
listening to:Heart Of The Sword by T.M. Revolution,Love No by The Teenagers,Love Story by Rain a.k.a Bi


its been hectic.crazy and lost of words to describe these few weeks.Ever since this term started,i don't think i had a full relaxing week yet and i don't think i will.I want to escape to somewhere with a swimming pool and also near the beach or perhaps just escape to a beach.Water and the beach calms me down.I would love to go alone but i'll probably bring Ryo with me just to be my kishi (knight) to protect me or somethin,haha.

Ryo have been the one to make me smile these days.He just knows the right things to say/type since these days we tok more on msn to make me feel better.There's just so many things going on and i'm just lost in the midst of it.I feel like i want to have to have powers like Hiro Nakamura once in awhile and just freeze the time so that i could relax or turn back time to taste J's kisses once more (yes,he's not a bad kisser...)

I'm just too obliging and nice sometimes that i get so many things put onto me but as i will always say,its my own fault.Yes,i know my posts are very emo this week but plz give me a break,i will try to turn back into the quirky happy chirpy lil princess soon (hopefully...) take care.

love,
quirkylilprincess

Bubbliness/Thanks My Ryo

mood:a bit more bubbly
listening to:Heartbreaker by Teriyaki Boyz,Heaven by Big Bang


I've cheered up a lil bit.My Ryo always does a good job of making me smile.He may disappoint me at times but he always makes me smile no matter wat.Oh well,its just work and crushes.nothing should get me down.press on.Thanks again,my Ryo :)

love,
quirkylilprincess

Everytime That I Tried,I Get Tongue Tied...

mood:emo,emo,emo
listening to:The Funeral Song by False Start,Tongue Tied by Faber Drive

i need some cheering up.Don't ask me to text n.h.n.t crush.his replies have been slightly cold these past 2 days eventhough he's alrite with me when we do meet up.its been a long day.cold msgs just brings me down.poor knight of mine is trying to chat with me but i'm just too tired to be nice and bubbly.sori my Ryo,ur hime is not treating you well.n.h.n.t crush will always see me as lil sis.nothin more.i guess that's how life is.yes,i'm slightly (ok,not slightly but quite) emo today so just let me be plz.i'm the one always texting n.h.n.t crush and always meeting him up,maybe i should cool things down for awhile and see how things goes.that might just be the solution.gotta go b4 this post turns too emo.take care.

love,
quirkylilprincess

Is This Just A Crush?The Girl Can't Help It

mood:bubbly tired
listening to:Crush by David Archuleta,Clumsy by Fergie,Dreams by The Cranberries

hey,

i'm feeling better at the moment.maybe it was just that class but once i left that class,i stopped coughing.weirdness.

I feel that David Archuleta's song 'Crush' is so fitting me at this moment.Its hard to have a n.h.n.t crush on a friend.Its even harder when u keep spending time with that person.I dunno...he just makes me smile and laugh more than almost every of my bois combined together does.At the moment,i'm just leaving it as it is.Just hanging out with him and texting.I guess that's enough for the moment,i'm having fun but in that sense,i feel like Fergie's song 'Clumsy' as well...

Anywayz,its gonna be a busy week for me so except either no updates or short quick ones.Take care,love yar :)

love,
quirkylilprincess

Emo-ly Sick...

mood:emo and lousy
listening to:Foolish Love by Big Bang,Four Letter Lie by False Start,Heaven by Big Bang,Haru Haru (Day By Day) [Acoustic Version) by Big Bang


hey,

i'm currently in class actually.My class is having internet access on the pc at the moment so yes,i'm abusing it.

I need some cheering up.I feel like i'm gonna be sick.Coughing away and my throat is super dry.I have not eaten anything except drank water since last night and yet i don't feel hungry or anything like that.Hopefully n.h.n.t crush can cheer me up l8r but his msgs today have so far been a bit cold...

Sorta doing my sketches for my class as well.I can't afford to be sick now.At least not till end of April.I just gotta keep going on,i guess.Too many things going on at the moment.Student leader stuff,classes,assignments,events at my col which i'm involved in and work at the marketing department at col.Not to mention,just living...

Yes,i'm kinda emo today.Please blame the sickness or wateva u wanna call it for making me feel emo and lousy.Goodbye for the moment,will update more when i feel a bit better.love yar.

take care,
quirkylilprincess

Qing Tian Mi Mi De Ai

mood:bubbly
listening to:Pressure by Paramore,Reach Out by Hilary Duff,Pretty Girl (The Way) by Sugarcult,Secret Valentine by We The Kings,Qing Tian by Jay Chou


hey,

I feel like some rock star's PA coz i've been arranging schedules for the rest of the student leaders for their duty times for some upcoming events at my col.The joys of being a secretary,haha (note the sarcasm...)

Been talking to me knight quite a lot these days on msn.I feel kinda bad that eventhough he's not really happy,i don't really know how to cheer him up.I'm the type of person who likes to try to cheer up my frenz whenever they are sad.i dunno lar,i just can't stand to see them sad in any way.

Texted n.h.n.t crush today as well.his replies always made me smile.Hope ppl didn't think i was nuts.i was smilling away in a bookstore while reading his replies but then again,i was reading manga so maybe they thought the manga was funny or sumthin which it was but not as funny as his replies.

I want a new hairstyle and new hair colour.I don't know what hairstyle i want but i noe i want my hair to be straightened and i want my hair colour to be bright orange ala Hayley Williams from Paramore.

Me and Jess were talking about crushes today.I said something to her like "its ok to have crushes if it makes you happy and not sad and overly dramatic",i mean crushes are harmless unless you act upon it in a OCD way which is kinda like stalking and stuff.hahaha.Oh well,as long as you're happy,i guess crushes are a just small matter.Anywayz,i'm signing off.leave some comments :) love yar.

Take care,
quirkylilprincess

I Don't Wanna Be The One Only Overjoyed

mood:sleepy...
listening to:There Is by Box Car Racer,Be The One by The Ting Tings,I Think I'm Ready by Katy Perry,Paperback Romance by 2StoreyHeart,Pressure by Paramore

hey everyone,

yes,i'm still awake at this time of the night or is it morning?wateva lar.still up coz uploading all those delayed pics onto Facebook.finally Facebook stop bitching on me and finally uploading stuff.the reason i didn't upload pics for a few months is becoz it was freaking slow,kept crashing or even refusing to load.love the new layout as well.

It was funny how Z tried to get me to tell him bout my n.h.n.t (neither here nor there) crush.I put it as n.h.n.t coz i dunno if its just a crush or anything more.i told Z that once i'm sure of my feelings,i will tell him bout the whole thing but as The Ting Tings sang "I don't wanna be the one only overjoyed",i certainly don't wanna end up being the only one who thinks of it as a crush.I know i sound confusing,i confuse myself as well.hahaha.

What bout J?some of you may ask that.we still have not been in contact for awhile,safe to say as far as i know,he's still surviving.i don't even ask Jess how is he now becoz frankly speaking,its over and done with.I'm over him,ready to fall in love again.To take a few risks,get bruised and just experience love and life to the fullest.I've put everything that has to do with love,liking,crushes and relationships on hold for quite some time already.I guess i deserve some fun,some smiles and some laughs.

Col on the other hand have been busy and tiring.Being a secretary ain't easy but its a responsibility so i will do my best.assignments been stacking up on top of each other.most days,if i ever sleep early,its only becoz i'm too tired to go on and i just wanna collapse already.been swimming in col as well.I don't exactly swim but i do move around the pool for like 5 laps of the length of the pool.it calms and yet tires me out.Facebook is now emoing with me and i feel damn sleepy so i shall continue uploading tomolo.nitenite,sweet dreams,take care :)

love,
quirkylilprincess

One Of The Boys

mood:pleasantly surprised in a way
listening to:My Heart Is The Worst Weapon by Fall Out Boy,One Of The Boys by Katy Perry

This song and lyrics goes out to a certain someone who probably will never read this blog and it goes out to me as well.I hope my feelings will get straighten out soon but for now,I'm fine with it.Just gonna have fun ;)

"One Of The Boys"

I saw a spider
I didn't scream
Cause I can belch
The alphabet
Just double dog
Dare me
And I chose
Guitar over ballet
And I take
These suckers down
Because they just
Get in my way
The way
You look at me
Is kinda like
A little sister
Rubbed
By your goodbyes
And it leaves me
Nothing but blisters

[Chorus]
So I don't want to be
One of the boys
One of your guys
Just give me a chance
To prove to you tonight
I just wanna be
one of the girls
Pretty in pearls
Not one of the boys

So over the summer
Something changed
I started reading Seventeen
And shaving my legs
And I study
Lolita religiously
And I walked
Right into school
And caught you
Staring at me
Cause I know
What you know
But now your gonna have
To take a number
It's OK
Maybe one day
But not until you give my
Diamond ring

[Chorus]
Cause I don't want to be
One of the boys
One of your guys
Just give me a chance
To prove to you tonight
I just wanna be
one of the girls
So pretty in pearl
Not one of the boys

I wanna be a flower
Not a dirty weed
And I wanna smell
Like roses
Not a baseball team
And I swear
Maybe one day
You're gonna
Wanna make out
Make out, make out
With me

(Don't wanna be)
Don't want to be
(Don't wanna be)
Don't want to be
(Don't wanna be)

[Chorus]
Cause I
I don't wanna be one
One
One of the boys
I just wanna be
one of the girls
So pretty in pearls
Not one of the boys

(Credit of this lyrics goes to Katy Perry & azlyrics.com for
providing me with it)

Crush Or Something More?

Mood:feel a crush brewing up...
listening to:Heaven by Big Bang,One Of The Boys by Katy Perry,Wonderful by Big Bang

I'm feeling unsure about my feelings for you.
Just a crush or can this lead to something more?
Everytime we text or just spend some time
hanging out with each other,
I find i laugh more,smile more and just feel happy.
I've been thinking that it would be nice
if we could end up together.
You're nice and sweet and you treat me well
as well.
I just can't seem to make up my mind
about my feelings for you.
Crush?Something more than that?
Friends?I really do not know...
Our friendship is certainly not purely platonic
neither are we purely just flirting with each other.
I guess i'll just leave it as it is at the moment
but to be honest,i do find myself ready
to take the risk and fall in love again.
Crush or something more,I guess i gotta decide or i
can just leave it as it is but as Katy Perry sang
"i don't wanna be one of the boys"
That's the same for me.

Addictive On Its Own

"Addictive On Its Own"

Basically i've lost my sense of love
since you left me all alone
You,you made me smile
Yet you made me cry as well

Do you know how much i cared?
Do you know how much i loved?
Well,screw it because you're not
in love with me no more

Chorus
The feeling of being addicted
is addictive on its own
The feelings of hatred is
lovable on its own
Did you care when i cried?
Did you regret anything?
Well i guess you didn't,
This feeling of melanchony
is addictive on its own

You never gave me any ring
neither any jewelry even though
you promised me

Lollypops taste bittersweet because
they remind me of you
Passing by music stores,
They made me almost cry remembering
how you used to sing to me

Chorus

Bridge
This is it,I guess
being addicted is
my treatment for this break up
I think i need rehab and a new
boyfriend

Chorus

New lyrics,i guess?the story is pretty self told in the lyrics.Hope you enjoy it.

Love,
Quirkylilprincess