Love Is Forever?

As the day is ending,i realised something.Its been 3 months.3 months since the break up and 3 months since i had to start answering people's questions or just shut up because honestly i don't want to discuss it anymore.there are people who asked does it still affect me,do i still have scars from it?

I guess i will always have a bit of scars which will never fade but i'm stronger because of it and unfortunately also more reluctant to believe in love.I'm not being a pessimist but i realize that when i used to advice The Boi about his relationship problems,i used to ask him to look at the bright side but now i prepare him for hurts as well.What a lousy friend i am in a sense right?

Now i'm listening to Neutron Star Collision (love is forever) by muse and i really do wish love is forever but i know it can't be.Love...its simple yet complicated,it gives the most joy in the world and yet it gives the most hurt in the world as well.Somehow i find myself relating to characters in Japanese tv dramas or animes lately.I relate to Yamada in Honey & Clover in the sense that she can't give up on Mayama and end up could be missing out on someone better like Nomiya and i also relate to Hagu-chan in Honey & Clover in the sense that she couldn't confess her love to Morita at first because she is scared.I also relate to Yukari from Paradise Kiss in the sense that i loved the turbulence in the relationship like she did with George because i knew how much i loved him but i know at the end of the day,i will choose someone i need like she did when she chose Hiroyuki instead of George because i know i won't be able to take so much turbulence anymore no matter how much i love the person and lastly i relate to Makino from Hana Yori Dango because even though Rui (the better guy) was there for her,at the end of the day,she still chose Domyoji even though things were so difficult for them to be together.

Maybe that's why i tear up when i watch those shows and anime because i can't help but relate to them so much that it hurts.Its like watching myself doing those 'mistakes' or things or however you call it again and again although in a different situation.For me,why do we love when it hurts so much?To be honest,i do not have an answer but i believe that we need love to survive somehow someway.